I am currently reading the book Armchair Mystic. As I said in a previous post, this is one of the drier times of my Spiritual walk. However, this book is proving to be a great source of encouragement and growth for me.
I think when I look back at my life I notice a trend. I have used my outgoing personality as an excuse to hide from solitude with God. I get my biggest buzz from corporate worship experiences in various settings or from serving and being with people. I have admired those who appear to be "closet Episcopalians" and thought that their excercises of silence, solitude and silent retreats must be very helpful for them. But, with great certainty I have always known it was not for me. That was my first mistake!
During the current journey I am on, I have been wrestling with a new understanding of prayer and how it plays into our ecclesiology. One of our ministers is providing some spiritual direction for me as I struggle through this stuff. He suggested the book and some additional things for me to do.
This is what I love about the book. It is realistic. It acknowledges that personalities like mine will probably never fully embrace the life of a contemplative, but it explains why a personality like mine needs to incorporate aspects of the life of a contemplative. For the first time in a long time, I feel like the times I am spending with God are truly intimate and not "work."
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Lessons I should have learned long ago
Okay so Missy, Angela and I are trouble. I love it! We perhaps rank as the "most untraditional minister's wife" gang in the SouthWest. In fact when we roam the halls of the church offices, it is not unusual for people to comment about us. The most pitiful thing is how easily we are amused - no really. It does not take much and we are cracking up. However, shallow we are not!
Here's the thing. If you happen to like a pair of jeans that, say, your single nice looking Young Adults Minister is wearing. Rather ask the make. Or, you could decide just to look for yourself and pick up his shirt, check the brand name on the waistband and move on. Of which I chose the latter and almost had him in cardiac arrest. My abovementioned friends burst into instant shrieking laughter and all the other ministry staff present were more than a little amused also.
But here's the thing. My intention was to not have to interrupt his conversation or even embarras him with the compliment and further questions about where he bought them etc. No, I chose to horrify him in discomfort and embarrasment all at the same time. My plan was good, the execution lacked a little finesse and perhaps a boundary or two.
Geez Louise, when will I learn.
Here's the thing. If you happen to like a pair of jeans that, say, your single nice looking Young Adults Minister is wearing. Rather ask the make. Or, you could decide just to look for yourself and pick up his shirt, check the brand name on the waistband and move on. Of which I chose the latter and almost had him in cardiac arrest. My abovementioned friends burst into instant shrieking laughter and all the other ministry staff present were more than a little amused also.
But here's the thing. My intention was to not have to interrupt his conversation or even embarras him with the compliment and further questions about where he bought them etc. No, I chose to horrify him in discomfort and embarrasment all at the same time. My plan was good, the execution lacked a little finesse and perhaps a boundary or two.
Geez Louise, when will I learn.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Song brainworms
Music is so important in my world - especially my worship.
Usually you can catch me humming a worship song from Chris Tomlin, a ballad from Bebo or something from Casting Crowns, MercyMe or Newsboys (I can get the accent on this one). Lately, it has been "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter. I've been known to even get the Wiggles, Barney or Dora stuck in my head for days. Hot potato, hot potato.....
However, this morning it's a little different. Tell, me why the brain of a middle class, anglo mother of two, minister's wife is stuck on Ridin' Dirty by Chamillionaire! Yikes - for everyone else's sanity and my personal purity I am praying this one departs as quickly as it arrived.
Usually you can catch me humming a worship song from Chris Tomlin, a ballad from Bebo or something from Casting Crowns, MercyMe or Newsboys (I can get the accent on this one). Lately, it has been "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter. I've been known to even get the Wiggles, Barney or Dora stuck in my head for days. Hot potato, hot potato.....
However, this morning it's a little different. Tell, me why the brain of a middle class, anglo mother of two, minister's wife is stuck on Ridin' Dirty by Chamillionaire! Yikes - for everyone else's sanity and my personal purity I am praying this one departs as quickly as it arrived.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
With a Little help from my friends...
Spiritually I am in a dry place right now, and I do not just mean Amarillo! I have had seasons like this before when I feel disconnected from God and my life of being a Jesus follower seems rote and empty. I am not longing for the word and prayer is a struggle. I know that some of it has to do with recovery from the surgery and a little depression that I am feeling from it all. Some has to do with the fact that God is teaching me new things about prayer. Some of my foundational beliefs are being transformed. Getting here has been hard because in just a few weeks I feel like I have gone from regular me to deist, to semi-aetheist and back to deist and now I am on new ground and something good is going to emerge.
But here is the cool part. As a ministers wife, involved member at our church, ministry leader etc I have been able to share these feelings with some friends and they are not having a cardiac arrest or wondering about my salvation and or impending doom. How great is it to be able to share your authentic struggles and feel safe enough to know its okay! Besides a few girlfriends & my small group I have found community in our church staff workmates. I had lunch with one of our elders wives and then with all respective appropriateness today I had a time to share my heart and struggles with our worship minister. I count him as a special friend, in fact I wonder if we were separated at birth (10 years apart :-)) I found a safe place there in the midst of him being able to point me to truth about my thinking that needed changing. I was also able to seek the counsel of our young adults minister and have him guide me in my pursuit of a different understanding of prayer. I admire and respect both of these men greatly and they extended the same to me today. I love being able to serve a church with a ministry team that is seeking community with one another and desiring to live truthfully together. I was able to walk away from both of these encounters today knowing that none of these people thought less of me, and both love me! Thanks guys.
But here is the cool part. As a ministers wife, involved member at our church, ministry leader etc I have been able to share these feelings with some friends and they are not having a cardiac arrest or wondering about my salvation and or impending doom. How great is it to be able to share your authentic struggles and feel safe enough to know its okay! Besides a few girlfriends & my small group I have found community in our church staff workmates. I had lunch with one of our elders wives and then with all respective appropriateness today I had a time to share my heart and struggles with our worship minister. I count him as a special friend, in fact I wonder if we were separated at birth (10 years apart :-)) I found a safe place there in the midst of him being able to point me to truth about my thinking that needed changing. I was also able to seek the counsel of our young adults minister and have him guide me in my pursuit of a different understanding of prayer. I admire and respect both of these men greatly and they extended the same to me today. I love being able to serve a church with a ministry team that is seeking community with one another and desiring to live truthfully together. I was able to walk away from both of these encounters today knowing that none of these people thought less of me, and both love me! Thanks guys.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Double Digits
May 1 1996 we became parents to Michaela Kasselman. Yes, she turned 10 yesterday. Unbelievable. Her party was Friday night and we survived a sleepover with 13 girls. I do not know what possessed me, but we made it through and can mark that one as done, never to be repeated!!!
Michaela loves hanging out with friends. She is a gifted singer and a piano student. School is easy for her and academically she is very advanced. She is detail oriented and very logical in her thinking (way more like David than me).
We love all those things about her, but most of all these are the things I love and admire about her.
...she always make a point to befriend the new kid in school.
...she likes and is liked by most kids who meet her, but it does not matter that her crowd is not the popular crowd.
...she is a concert rat.
...she has a keen sense of humor that is maturing all the time (wit can so easy sound like "cheek")
...she does a lemonade stand each year and donates the money to our Outreach ministry.
...she is a fabulous big sister and her and Spencer really love each other!
...she is a growing child of God and I can not wait to see what He does in her life.
...she loves foreign travel and soaks up anyplace she goes.
Michaela loves hanging out with friends. She is a gifted singer and a piano student. School is easy for her and academically she is very advanced. She is detail oriented and very logical in her thinking (way more like David than me).
We love all those things about her, but most of all these are the things I love and admire about her.
...she always make a point to befriend the new kid in school.
...she likes and is liked by most kids who meet her, but it does not matter that her crowd is not the popular crowd.
...she is a concert rat.
...she has a keen sense of humor that is maturing all the time (wit can so easy sound like "cheek")
...she does a lemonade stand each year and donates the money to our Outreach ministry.
...she is a fabulous big sister and her and Spencer really love each other!
...she is a growing child of God and I can not wait to see what He does in her life.
...she loves foreign travel and soaks up anyplace she goes.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Blessed Bubba Floyd
To the one known as Bubba Floyd, formerly of Abilene, TX; Norman, OK; and now Lebanon, TN (okay TN before Abilene also). Thank you for the incredible artwork I received in the mail. This is worth an entire blog series, but I will leave it as a mysterious, self indulgent post today. For the 2 people who read this, I will explain later.
Monday, April 24, 2006
Real Life Sitcom
I am not a lover of sitcoms. Never have been really, except for the Cosby's way back when. I don't really know why - I enjoy a good chuckle. Perhaps, it's because most of them just don't seem funny to me. You have to wait so long for an authentic hilarious moment. Except, Raymond perhaps. He doesn't even have to talk to make me laugh.
However, real live moments of hilarious situational comedy truly crack me up. I can survive on those for days. Last night was one of those moments and I will never do justice to the story by trying to repeat it here in writing, but I will take a stab at it and chuckle to myself in the process.
One of the members of our small group is having back surgery today. There were two conversations in process about the surgery, pain, treatments etc. One of the group members was listening to snipets of both conversations and you get the idea....
The pharmacist in the group was saying that because of the condition, he was probably having to lie on his stomach. The other conversation was about the steroids making him eat a lot. Nancy then began a series of questions something like this....not really allowing anyone to answer, just in rapid succession. Not that anyone could answer, because those not in the discussion, were rolling on the floor laughing.
"Does lying on your stomach make you eat a lot?"
"I didn't realize it could make you hungry!"
"He's got to take steroids because of lying on his stomach?"
"Wait a minute, they are feeding him 6 meals a day because he is lying on his stomach?"
And so it continued for a few more poignant questions. It came out eventually that she sleeps on her stomach, and was a little concerned about the consequences.
For the love!
However, real live moments of hilarious situational comedy truly crack me up. I can survive on those for days. Last night was one of those moments and I will never do justice to the story by trying to repeat it here in writing, but I will take a stab at it and chuckle to myself in the process.
One of the members of our small group is having back surgery today. There were two conversations in process about the surgery, pain, treatments etc. One of the group members was listening to snipets of both conversations and you get the idea....
The pharmacist in the group was saying that because of the condition, he was probably having to lie on his stomach. The other conversation was about the steroids making him eat a lot. Nancy then began a series of questions something like this....not really allowing anyone to answer, just in rapid succession. Not that anyone could answer, because those not in the discussion, were rolling on the floor laughing.
"Does lying on your stomach make you eat a lot?"
"I didn't realize it could make you hungry!"
"He's got to take steroids because of lying on his stomach?"
"Wait a minute, they are feeding him 6 meals a day because he is lying on his stomach?"
And so it continued for a few more poignant questions. It came out eventually that she sleeps on her stomach, and was a little concerned about the consequences.
For the love!
Monday, April 10, 2006
I'm back!!!!
I survived it and can tell the tale! This surgery did not go as planned and why am I shocked? My life seems to reflect that theme..lesson here anyone? Yes, they did the colectomy and a surprise hysterectomy at the same time....My hospital stay included 2 nights in CCU because of a 150 beat heart rate and an extended hospital stay. But, I am back in the land of the living on the way to recovery. I go to the doc. tomorrow for him to check the incisions etc and hopefully everything is just peachy. Actually today is my first day at home alone with Spencer and it has made me a little nervous. Our energy levels do not match right now and I know who is going to "outlast, outwit and outplay."
Thanks for the love and care from my blog friends, my church family, my biological family. The treats, magazines, meals, flowers, calls and cards have made each day more sunny.
Thanks for the love and care from my blog friends, my church family, my biological family. The treats, magazines, meals, flowers, calls and cards have made each day more sunny.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Triple layer Fever Blister
I could not believe it when I looked in the mirror this morning. No matter how calm I say I am about this surgery - my lip revealed the truth. There before me, a beautifully formed, triple layered stress indicator, also known in my life as a Fever Blister. They have betrayed me so many times, errupting in perfect sync with all the hard times. Yikes! Oh well - there's no pretending now.
Actually it is quite funny. I have a friend from South Africa who I grew up with and she works at the University church of Christ in Abilene. Not only have we shared years of life together, we have a common bond in the old fever blister department. So, of course I called her first thing this morning and we both bust out laughing and then recounted our worst ones. Like all respected fever blister sufferers would do.
All that said, I am feeling anxious. However I am being so covered in prayer that I know this will be okay. My church and physical family have been so good to keep reminding me that they are praying and what they are praying for. My blog friends have done the same. I ask you to keep praying for me to be calm, have a peaceful attitude and that all would go well.
I won't be blogging again till I'm back home and feeling good.
Actually it is quite funny. I have a friend from South Africa who I grew up with and she works at the University church of Christ in Abilene. Not only have we shared years of life together, we have a common bond in the old fever blister department. So, of course I called her first thing this morning and we both bust out laughing and then recounted our worst ones. Like all respected fever blister sufferers would do.
All that said, I am feeling anxious. However I am being so covered in prayer that I know this will be okay. My church and physical family have been so good to keep reminding me that they are praying and what they are praying for. My blog friends have done the same. I ask you to keep praying for me to be calm, have a peaceful attitude and that all would go well.
I won't be blogging again till I'm back home and feeling good.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Lament
The Central church family woke up Sunday morning to find out that two families are experiencing horrific pain. One family lost there son to an accidental shooting in a game of Russian Roulette and the other families son was arrested for involuntary manslaughter because he owned the gun.
How do you even begin to understand. You don't.
I keep hearing the words,
"Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will sayBlessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to sayLord, blessed be Your name"
How do you even begin to understand. You don't.
I keep hearing the words,
"Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will sayBlessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to sayLord, blessed be Your name"
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Spring Break
Thanks to so many of you who have emailed about my surgery. It is set for 3/30 - so keep praying!
My body is still on California time and my heart is there too. We had a fabulous Spring Break in San Diego. We were there 2 years ago and I fell in love with Southern California because it is so much like South Africa. Magical, truly magical. I have a theory that if you were born by the ocean, it will always call you back. Actually it is screaming at me. We did so many fun things. We did the Rodeo Drive, Hollywood thing for Michaela. Her and I took a tour of the Kodak theatre where the Oscars are held, and it was fascinating! Then in San Diego we went back to Legoland for Spencer. The kids had a ball and we did too really. We spent 2 days just hanging out at the resort by the pool, going down the waterslide, playing in the game room. It was so relaxing. One day we drove to LaJolla and the kids played in the water. We have officially turned into those people that roll up there pants and frolick in the ocean - so dull to the locals! LaJolla was magnificent. We got to view the pregnant seals and those who had just birthed babies - so precious!
All in all we had a great trip - it was long. Everywhere is long from Amarillo!!!!
My body is still on California time and my heart is there too. We had a fabulous Spring Break in San Diego. We were there 2 years ago and I fell in love with Southern California because it is so much like South Africa. Magical, truly magical. I have a theory that if you were born by the ocean, it will always call you back. Actually it is screaming at me. We did so many fun things. We did the Rodeo Drive, Hollywood thing for Michaela. Her and I took a tour of the Kodak theatre where the Oscars are held, and it was fascinating! Then in San Diego we went back to Legoland for Spencer. The kids had a ball and we did too really. We spent 2 days just hanging out at the resort by the pool, going down the waterslide, playing in the game room. It was so relaxing. One day we drove to LaJolla and the kids played in the water. We have officially turned into those people that roll up there pants and frolick in the ocean - so dull to the locals! LaJolla was magnificent. We got to view the pregnant seals and those who had just birthed babies - so precious!
All in all we had a great trip - it was long. Everywhere is long from Amarillo!!!!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Laundry
David and I are planning on leaving tomorrow morning for a quick weekend trip to Dallas. I say intending because Michaela has the flu and bronchitis. It has been an interesting 48 hours. However if we still get to go our friend and surrogate Grandmother to the kids, Becky, will be taking care of them. It struck me yesterday that I had some laundry to catch up on. She wouldn't mind digging through the clean stuff that hasn't been put away but I don't want her to have to do that. In fact, I don't like doing it that way. I am a neat and tidy person who thrives in order, so why this last week or so I have laundry so out of control I do not know. It is what it is and there are a few baskets full needing to be sorted, folded and put away. Actually I have just completed the job and it was a job!
This is what struck me. We are blessed enough not to need the laundry up to date. We have enough of everything to make it for at least 2 weeks in the "underwear" department and many more than that with general clothing.
I'm thankful that God allowed me to see a blessing like that in the midst of a mundane task this morning.
This is what struck me. We are blessed enough not to need the laundry up to date. We have enough of everything to make it for at least 2 weeks in the "underwear" department and many more than that with general clothing.
I'm thankful that God allowed me to see a blessing like that in the midst of a mundane task this morning.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Bono
I know that just about everyone has either heard or read Bono's sermon at the Prayer Breakfast. It was fabulous and I am still pondering things from it.
What is the difference between chairty and justice? I have glimpses of an answer to that question but there is so much still to uncover. I guess what makes me uncomfortable is the fact that my life has been more about charity than justice, yet I have previously thought of myself as a champion of justice.
It seems to me that Charity is giving from a place of "having" to a people who "have not" without affecting change for their long-term hope and living. Justice is sharing so that we all have enough even though "enough" is different in Africa and America. That justice sets into motion the potential for a life of hope, chance, opportunity and viability. Justice longs for the life of people to be transformed into something and charity focuses on the act of my giving without really connecting me to the pain of a people.
How do I teach this to my children? How do I learn how to live in such a way that I fight for the rights of the marginal?
Jesus was about justice.
What is the difference between chairty and justice? I have glimpses of an answer to that question but there is so much still to uncover. I guess what makes me uncomfortable is the fact that my life has been more about charity than justice, yet I have previously thought of myself as a champion of justice.
It seems to me that Charity is giving from a place of "having" to a people who "have not" without affecting change for their long-term hope and living. Justice is sharing so that we all have enough even though "enough" is different in Africa and America. That justice sets into motion the potential for a life of hope, chance, opportunity and viability. Justice longs for the life of people to be transformed into something and charity focuses on the act of my giving without really connecting me to the pain of a people.
How do I teach this to my children? How do I learn how to live in such a way that I fight for the rights of the marginal?
Jesus was about justice.
Surgery
The date has been set for March 30th. I will be sliced and diced and about 11 inches or so of my colon will be removed. Bye bye ugly little pockets of infection and hello a bag of popcorn! There are so many foods that I am unable to eat with this condition and it is getting old! At least, I should have a pay off of being thin. But no.....
On a more serious note. I am not the bravest soul when it comes to medical stuff, or much else really. I am timid about things like that. I am not looking forward to going through this but I know I will be better on the other side - No, I do not mean heaven either. Just, the other side of the procedure. But right now, I am feeling a little anxious about the kids, about me, about the pain, about David....and so the list goes on.
Just thought I would journal some of this so I get it out of my head and worry veins.
On a more serious note. I am not the bravest soul when it comes to medical stuff, or much else really. I am timid about things like that. I am not looking forward to going through this but I know I will be better on the other side - No, I do not mean heaven either. Just, the other side of the procedure. But right now, I am feeling a little anxious about the kids, about me, about the pain, about David....and so the list goes on.
Just thought I would journal some of this so I get it out of my head and worry veins.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Reverse Tithing
I keep hearing those words in my brain. I tend to over analyze things anyway and this one for sure. I heard an interview with Rick Warren on TV the other night and he was asked if it was true that he "reverse tithed." He said yes quite humbly and moved on. This is what this means...He gives 90% and keeps 10%. He has paid Saddleback back for the salaries he has earned over the last 20 years and I know there is more. It is easy to think that his 10% is still a nice little sum, but that is not the point. He stated very clearly that the reason for doing this is to keep him and his family away from the trap of materialism. What a lesson for me. I keep thinking about the implications for my little world. What are the things I am doing to keep myself from the trap of materialism?
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Family
I love it when we are all cracking up about something. I love it when we eat dinner together with the table decorated by the kids. I love it when we have a French Picnic indoors for dinner. I love family game night. I love holiday traditions. I love it when Michaela and Spencer play together despite their age difference. Today I am thankful for family and pray that God equips me each day with what I need for that days ministry to my family.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Daily Communion
Last night after our small group had finished, the telephone rang and a couple from church asked if they could come over because they had a word from the Lord for me. Of course I said yes to come on over. They arrived and the last 2 families from small group left. They sat down and started telling me that their group was studying the idea of daily communion as something to be used in healing. I have been struggling with some health issues and am facing possible surgery. They had lifted my name up in prayer during their small group and felt led by God to bring over a baggie of pieces of bread and some wine for me to use to partake of daily communion as a way of bringing healing to my physical body. Wow - never quite thought of that before. Still thinking. But it was so impactful. They laid hands on me and prayed over me and then I took the bread and dipped it in the wine. They talked more about the very act being a sign to the demons that I was standing on holy ground and they were to flee. Wow again - more impactful.
Think what you may - it is a such a blessing to have people who act on the promptings from the Lord and witness boldly. Thank you Alan and Cindy Nickson.
Think what you may - it is a such a blessing to have people who act on the promptings from the Lord and witness boldly. Thank you Alan and Cindy Nickson.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Marriage
David and I will have been married 20 years in about a month. I can hardly believe that! I know we got married when we were 10.....
Relationships are a funny thing. Ours has certainly grown and changed and changed and grown. Life has a way of changing people - good thing. God has a way of changing people - great thing!
I am thinking about this today because David has been gone for a few days and I miss him so much when we are apart. Why wouldn't I seeing as though I have spent little more than half my life married to him.
Husband, lover, friend, advisor, guide, leader, Dad, Son, Brother, Minister - he is all that!
Relationships are a funny thing. Ours has certainly grown and changed and changed and grown. Life has a way of changing people - good thing. God has a way of changing people - great thing!
I am thinking about this today because David has been gone for a few days and I miss him so much when we are apart. Why wouldn't I seeing as though I have spent little more than half my life married to him.
Husband, lover, friend, advisor, guide, leader, Dad, Son, Brother, Minister - he is all that!
Christmas, Crankiness and Colons
There are so many reasons I could give for not blogging, but they all seem pretty lame actually. I just haven't done it. Once you let it go it is so hard to start up again.
Christmas was awesome as usual - I love the whole "embrace everyone" atmosphere of the holidays. Just love it!
But, this year it was followed by me becoming rather Cranky. I just don't know what hit, but I felt myself spiral into the grumps. I've been cranky with the kids, a little distant with everyone else and quite withdrawn for me. Interesting.
Well closely followed by Christmas & Crankiness is the Colon. I started having severe Diverticulitus pain which resulted in an absess on my colon and a brief hospital stay. Not quite what I had planned for the start of 2006. But, I think I am on the mend and tomorrow's CT scan will determine that.
Christmas was awesome as usual - I love the whole "embrace everyone" atmosphere of the holidays. Just love it!
But, this year it was followed by me becoming rather Cranky. I just don't know what hit, but I felt myself spiral into the grumps. I've been cranky with the kids, a little distant with everyone else and quite withdrawn for me. Interesting.
Well closely followed by Christmas & Crankiness is the Colon. I started having severe Diverticulitus pain which resulted in an absess on my colon and a brief hospital stay. Not quite what I had planned for the start of 2006. But, I think I am on the mend and tomorrow's CT scan will determine that.
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